May 29, 2014

Two Days Shy

Early tomorrow morning, two days shy of the first anniversary of
our Austin's home-going to Heaven, his three younger siblings 
plan to go to the heart clinic with their Dad(dy).  They each have appointments.
It's the very same heart clinic where we last were with Austin.  Where we often were. 
The Lord-willing, they will be seeing one of Austin's doctors.

I didn't want to be the one to take the children.  
It feels too soon.  It's still too raw.  Perhaps it always will be.
My heart skips a beat just thinking about it.
So, Howie agreed to go.  And, his heart skips a beat, too.

Because Austin had DCM, we are having all our children examined.
It is something we were advised to do.  We have no reason to believe
that any of our other three have hidden heart troubles.  None at all.
But, there is always a chance that this type of thing can be genetic.

So, they are being checked.

As Howie and I chatted about these things last night, we shared some tears.  
And, we both had to remind ourselves once again of the bigger picture.
No matter what the Lord calls us to, He will see us through.
We know this to be absolutely true.  We have witnessed it first hand.  

The grace we need will be provided.  His provisions are never late.
The Lord is the first cause.  In everything.  Always.
And, because He is, we really have no reason to worry or to harbour fears.
We can trust Him and rest in Him.  In His perfect plan.

So, we reigned our hearts in, and we prayed.

This renewing of our minds is a constant battle.

However, it is one worth fighting.  So we fight and we stand.
On the sure foundation on which our lives are built ~ on the Solid Rock.
How precious it is to rest in the Sovereignty of our Great God.
Lasting peace and comfort may be found in Him.  Only in Him.

"My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart,

and my portion forever."  Psalm 73:26

Many Blessings,

**11AM UPDATE: All is well.  And, the Lord is always good.

Even when the news is not.  Yes, even then.
Thank you so much for your love and prayers ~ y'all bless our hearts.


Becky L. said...

Stand strong my friend. Glad you are getting all three checked. Praying all will be ok. Hugs!

Oregon-Mama said...

That verse from Psalm 73 is so lovely, Camille. Thinking of you as you approach that difficult day. Praying you feel God's peace, love, and Sovereignty even more keenly this week through your other children's appointments as well as the anniversary of his passing into eternity. Although I do not know you in person, my heart feels knitted to yours as a mother and as a sister in Christ. Grace and peace to you.

Donna said...

I pray that each of your children have no heart issues. I will be praying for your family.

Nikki said...

I will be praying that all goes well with their appointments. Thinking of you daily.

Dianna said...

Good morning (Friday) Camille,
I pray that the reports from the children's visit to the doctor went well. I will be praying. Hugs to you, my friend.

OurCrazyFarm said...

You have been in my thoughts and prayers all week as Austin's first Heaven homecoming draws near, Camille. Yes, God will give you the grace for this day as well. I was just reading Spurgeon's advice on persevering... One day at a time, dear friend, until we, too, get to see Jesus' face. Praying for peace for your family today in God's good plans.

Maryann said...

Have been praying for you this week, and will continue, Camille. Happy to hear all is well with the other children. Hugs to you sweet friend!

Angela said...

Will be praying for you Camille and your family in the days ahead. So glad that all is well with the other 3 children. God be with you and comfort you all.

Pam Phelps said...

I am so glad that all is well (per your update). I will be keeping you in my prayers as you go through this one year anniversary. I'm sure it must be so difficult.
Love and Blessings,

Camille said...

Dear Becky ~ Thank you for your prayers and your encouraging words. What a blessing it is to rest in our Great God's perfect plans! Truly precious. Hugs to you. :)

Dear Oregon-Mama ~ You bless my heart. Thank you for your sweet friendship through this means. Hugs to you! :)

Dear Donna ~ Thank you so much for your kind friendship over these last many months...I appreciate you. Thank you for praying for us...what a blessing to my heart! Hugs! :)

Dear Nikki ~ Thank you so much! What a blessing it is to belong to the Family of our Great God! Hugs to you. :)

Dear Dianna ~ Your prayers are a sweet blessing to my heart. Thank you so much! Hugs. :)

Dear Terri ~ Yes, my friend...yes...until He calls us Home!! Thank you for your encouragement through these last many means so much to me that you have come alongside. Hugs to you. :)

Dear Maryann ~ Thank you my friend...thank you! You are a blessing to my heart. Hugs to you. :)

Dear Angela ~ I appreciate your prayers and your loving support of our family. Thank you for lifting us up to the Throne of Grace...God is so kind to us, isn't He? Hugs to you! :)

Dear Pam ~ It is a blessing to my heart that you pray...thank you so much, my friend! The Lord truly is carrying us through. He is Faithful. Hugs to you! :)

With love,

Cinnamon said...

Camille, Sooo thankful all the tests came back good. What a blessing just to know.

Thinking of you so often and praying for continued healing.


Camille said...

Dear Cinnamon ~ You are a sweet blessing to my heart. Hugs! :) With love, Camille

Sandi said...

God bless you.